forget.....
forgotten...
only an illusion... only a dream... a good dream... and now a mere nightmare... forget...forgotten...
YOU are forgotten... until we meet again... time is of an essence... don't take it for granted...evidently, now you do...

dream a little miracle... hope for a better tomorrow... *sigh*... forgetting... forgotten
-In the end, there is only me... nothing can satisfy me better than myself.
i see the man i first met, but he has left me...
"I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose."
good-bye love and affection... good-bye sweet moments... good-bye careless acts of love... good-bye feelings of desire, good-bye feelings. forget, forgotten... forgetting the man i first met, he is gone... this is you now... forget... forgotten...

i'll be here... not for me... only for you... because there is no me with you anymore... i'm forgetting my desire, love, affection, romance, sweet tender moments, because they don't matter... All that matters is you.. and whenever you... whatever you... whoever you... whyever you, whichever you... i'll jus sit here obediently and respond to your commands if i'm still here... no more arguements, no more mind-boggling torment... take care of whatever YOU have to get done... no more complaints... no more nagging. Why am i here? I'm not the girl you made pretend to be.... but i tried.. i rearranged my life... just for you... and i get nothing back. This is what you wanted, you are having it your way.

Nevermind fallign in love all over again... how do i fall in love with someone thats not there...? how do you feel him, how do i need him? how do i want him? how can i be in his life to love something, anything of him? how do i know him? how do i see him? how do i remember his face? how do i remember his voice? how do i remember his love, his touch, the sound of his breathing, how do i remember him saying the words "i love you"? If he's not really there... because i don't know if all that matters is really still there... a shadow left behind in the darkness... how do i see shadow if light is not there...? He might be there, but he's in the dark.... no shadow... no trace of love... no trace of existence.. except for the image in my head of the person standing there before the light went out. He might not even be there, he simply walked away into the darkness...