As I lay here thinking
I want to cry
why do I want to
I’m in a days
Nothing is right here
I start to cry
but it’s not tears
I cry
it’s blood…
Warm
distasteful
red blood
It rolls down my check
Everything is wrong
I’m jealous
of what
I’m not sure
My insides hurt
now the blood
is everywhere
all around my head
Something is wrong
Very wrong
I should not cry
yet
I cry
Voices in my head
telling me to end
end it all now
but I can’t
I want
you here
I want
us together
I want
this to be over
My pillow covered
in warm blood
Maybe it’s true
this will never work
Us
of course
With that
I shall lay here
in my blood shed tears