Mind bogged down

Fingers numb

Thinking of you…

You are everywhere
in my head
my writing
my every thought

Don’t worry thinking helps
rest your head now
you are safe in my mind
keep an open mind for anything

You want me to stop this
I would if only I knew how
my mind is it’s own self
I want to shut down but can’t

Just close your eyes now
the more you think the more pain
I will not force you to read anymore
all I ask is you never forget

Never forget me,
what we had
how I got this far
or maybe my love

Writing hurts to a point
only when I think of you
don’t ask me to stop
I already said it is impossible

My head is full

My body week

Fingers are gone

You are no where to be found
my mind is playing tricks now
you are killing me

Things don’t add up anymore
poems make no sense now
life itself makes no sense
yet I keep writing

lay down love
rest your head
it only hurts a little
you know that

Fingers cold now
mind is getting empty
for once maybe an end
all I wanted was you

I can’t leave you
not like this or ever
you are everything in my mind

my mind is shot now…

now maybe closer will come…

if not ill have to find it myself…

Sick to the stomach now
no food for days
only pills that are no good
things are all messed up
thanks to you

Do not read any more
stop while you still have a mind
Ill tell you this mine is gone
writing is my outlet
yours too I believe

Crazy I am but yet here I write
and wait for you my love