What an ass I've been!
To believe that life
could ever be changed!
That the pain
could somehow be rearranged
or that words could heal,
what I've chose to reveal!

In the innocence of youth,
I received visions
so bright, so devine.
Fires that split the night!
Now my blood flows
like wine.

A guest
at the feast of the dead.
The quest
for innocence is lost.
I have no hope
for all that lies ahead,
as I don my wings of lead.

The fires I have burned,
to shed some light
into this black abyss!
The times I have yearned,
to find the key
to forgetfulness!

Only to find
that a damned soul,
is damned for eternity
and eternity never ends!

I've played the fool
far too long.
A court jester,
everyone loves to watch fall.
The joke has been on me,
after all.

So get on with it!
Let me feel the earths
encompassing cold!
Let me feel
the gnawing and gnashing,
of worms through flesh!
Swimming through
marrow and bone!
Let me sleep and mold!

For my visions
are so obscured
and life seems
too absurd!
Let me sleep,
with my worms and words!