With tears swelling in my eyes.
I wear a smile as my disguise.
Wondering " Why am I being abused ".
Feeling,lonely,scared and confused.
Knowing my Mother seeks her revenge.
Popping pills on another binge.
Saying she Loves me but she hurts me the most.
She raises her glass like making a toast.
A drink for each tear I shed.
As I lay crying on my bed.
Suffering from my Mother's scorn.
Wishing I was never born.
Fearful of her next assault.
Feeling like it's all my fault.
I say " I LOVE YOU " back.
Avoiding another vicious attack.
Forced to hug and kiss her goodbye.
Scared she'll notice there isn't a tear in my eye.