Day by day
the gears roll the same way
don't influence change
or you'll hurt someone
or yourself
on a shelf
where you belong
with your dust covered prose
and paintbrushes
keep that paint chip covered closet closed
what if someone knew
that all you know
doesn't pay rent

Grey aluminum treetrunk days
newspaper cherry blossoms
graze my glazed face
denim darlings doodle dance by
smiling dying inside
the dirt is thirsty for tears
drowning in the rain
jealous of the floor mats
in cheverolets

Grey aluminum treetrunk days
stay away
your just my brain
their is a enough mirth
in this earth
outside and inside
either grieve for yourself
or the bruised up black eyed brides
brown burnt slaving hides
children who either kill or die
love or pride
you decide

you in your
shiny earth eater
metal insect of great
it gets you to the places
you wish you never went
to shit all the money
you wish you never spent

and oh hell
the lust of love
the pursuit one should not have

I wait till the morn
let the sun in
orange pink heat
dry my skin
as my eyes cry piss
and watch all flout away
away
just laugh
there is nothing to say

thank you means nothing
and sorry means everything
if you are sorry for everything
and if you aren't
live like hell
until death
where hell can accommodate your need
for constant pain

Oh my hateful heartless heathen soul
climb out of this mirror
and find a religion or a noose
whatever the lesser evil

help me
help me please
I'm killing myself and
I just want you to see
and say something you mean
please
drugs are my family
my family is a disease
I'm walking on strings
I'm dying to live
or just dying of greed

and fuck you
you hypocrites
I don't need your pain
you always need something
or someone to blame

But who are you
not the same
crying like rain
naked
not hiding your mountains and plains
smiling in blood drenched days
not because you are happy
but because you know
this is real
i know
this is real

grey aluminum treetrunk days
you modern maniacal
ferry boats to death
give me a life raft
or let me dance with the kelp
where no one speaks and
I can hear the secret
singing of my heart
right before I am filled
with the beautiful sea

sweet thing
save me
I know you can't
but I am asking you anyways
so when I fall through your hands
I know you will cry
someone will cry