Longingly

Always…..
I’d waited for mother to come through the door
As a child
Not one would ask
What I’d wanted more

A break in the weather
To skip outside
I’d sit by the window
Patiently hold my thoughts inside

I’d wait…
For the phone to ring
Friends perhaps,
Would we go for a swing?

I waited, oh so long
To grow, be something more

I’d ponder in the garden
Only to be called
Yet to do another chore

I thought
“when I get older, I will…
Be this and that”
Better, still
I’d be …..older

I’d wish for a love
So true
What it would be like,
I dreamt this through and through

Then..I grew,
I waited again
For life’s uncertainties to be clear
And then….

Reality for a term
Sometimes hard to bear
Fortunately, new roads opened
I found I was there

Wondering what will be my next move?
A road paved with love,
Peaceful and serene
Seems I’m always back in the dream,
Patiently, pondering, yes,
Waiting, this is true

Hoping, and praying
For something “to give”
I rested my case…
Decided, I would just begin to live

Wishing with stars
As they burned bright in the sky
The calmness they bring
The peace in the night

Aching for a heart
To receive the love
I held for ransom
If only “he should exist”

I gave my will
To God,
Most willingly

Corners turned
A soul that yearned
Burned bright enough
To attract so true

A love for me
Then peace ensued
Carefully treading life’s daily steps

We walk side by side
Made promises
We’ve kept

Wistful for my kin
Their hearts I hold within
Desperate to behold their smiles
As I patiently wait to span the miles
Of my longing,,,

carolann