I stumble through life in a melancholy daze
Cynical thoughts maybe this is a faze.
Unfortunately though, this is life.
I used to think, one day she'd be my wife
Instead shes gone, far away from here
Fuck it, I'll just down this case of beer.
But the more I drink the better I see
She's gone and she took the best of me.
Now I've got nothing but these tears on my cheek.
I try to be strong, when I'm clearly so weak.
I got too attached and fucked myself over
There's no one to help, and I can't stand to be sober.
Can't show anyone that I'm this vulnerable
The pain is crippling, I'm nearly immobile.
I just want to go and move on.
But part of me just has to hold on
To all the great time ans fun we had
I always loved here even when I was mad.
Nothing she did ever made me doubt This was the life, I had figured it out
If she only knew the pain I felt.
Frying my brains, burning my eyes out.
System overload, I need to reboot
"Look out your boy's 'bout to shoot"
Brains on the wall, I'm ready to die
If I were to go would she even cry?
Of course she would, she said she loved me.
Then how come when she looks at me I feel so ugly.
Its all my fault and theres no one else to blame
Is this really life or is it just game?
Can't I hit restart and try again.
No, she hates me and likes other men.
I hate myself and this fucking world
Fuck it all I can't take it no more
So here I go, on the count of three
I'll make sure that girl remembers me
Maybe she'll forget my funny jokes
But she won't forget the night i slit my throat
The steel of the blade feels so cold
Maybe it's a sin, but I don't care what I've been told.
Grab an umbrella, theres about to be a flood
"Oh my God, look at all the blood"
"I never thought he'd do that such a good kid"
"I guess he had enough and flipped his lid"
She didn't get it, why couldn't she see
How great and amazing she is to me