I come here to this empty room
I come to sit and wish
Wishes come out of my mouth with every breath
Every wish nothing more than lies
Lies wrapped around false hope for things to change
Things fall apart all around me
And yet I still sit here
I still sit here and wish
I wish for courage, I wish for strength
A heart strong enough to endure the hell that is to come
I wish this as my hands shake from fear
And my heart gives out from pain
But still I sit here
I still sit here and wish
I wish for new ears
Ears that hear the truth and not the lies
Ears that will listen and not forget
I wish this as my ears bleed
Bleed from hearing coarse words
But I can't stop wishing
I still sit here and I wish
I wish for my hands to hold the answer to everything
To hold the key to life
To just have everything within my hands
And no where else
My wish falls into my empty hands
Cut, scarred, bleeding
Empty hands that cannot hold onto anything anymore
Hands that let everything slip
Hands that cannot feel
But with these empty hands
I pick myself up
I pick myself up and look in the mirror
No reflection for there is no one there
And I look inside myself
And I realize there is nothing there
No Brain
No Heart
No Lungs
No Soul
Nothing there inside of me
Nothing except wishes
Lies wrapped in false hope
And now I open my eyes
To find an envelope full of lies
To find a box full of blood
To find myself
Sitting
Wishing
Still trapped in lies
Still holding onto false hope