yes I "push the envelope"
in many things that I do.
please accept my apology
for the ways it effects you.

all I know is commitment
when being with a man.
an emotion less attachment
is difficult to understand.

the time spent with you
is something I really enjoy.
as if I can't get enough,
like a child with a new toy.

while we are making love
and I surrender to you
I lose myself in the fascination
of all the things that you do.

I told you I don’t understand
having sex without emotion
that's the only reason I can give
as to why I feel this devotion

it down right astounds me
how vulnerable I feel,
yet I know that to you;
that I'm not that big a deal.

you don't want a relationship
due to the hassles it involves.
you want freedom and independence
and the ability to be absolved.

I hope you don't think
that I sound deranged
when I say "in the future-
I hope your mind is changed!"