Negativity prying at my mind
Scared shitless of change
Take me in your embrace
Failure one endless race
An ode to self pity
Must be buried
But where?
I'm running out of space...

Out of the blue
Shock and surprise
Stabbed a dagger
Through this malaise
Blood pouring out
Corpse still alive
I didn't think it had
A second chance but
Deep behind these walls

Everytime I consider
Giving you another chance
The doubt resurfaces
And my mind goes back
To the day you left me
At the station in a strange city
Alone to manuever

Sometimes, even a cynic needs love
Though he may never express it
There's only one All mighty
And he's shaking his head in dismay
At the festering insanity below
The curse of free will

A month of trials and tribulations
Enough to drive a saint insane
Oh, don't be so hard on yourself
It's just part of the political game
I'm not meant for this

Inching towards twenty years
Older but questionably wiser
Phone calls, invitations, e-mails
Will you forgive us for emotional blackmail?
No response, offense unintended

Hungover smashed by a freight train
Glance beside the unknown drunk
Snoring away and swear 2 yourself
That today is going to be different
Stand up straight and accept reality

No longer the same excitement
A drag of biblical proportions
No matter how I try to twist and turn
Thus become the great contortionist
I am powerless to please you...

Your eyes kill me
I can't look away
So beautiful
I am yours...

Call me when you can
Everyday, my preference
I desire more then a text message
But logistics prevent us

My mind ready to explode
Hope the pieces don't fall on you
If they do, then so what
I've done everything just to please you
Cater to insufferable needs
All for naught

The angels always depart too soon
And while there must be a good reason
I'm left trying to understand why
Greed monger bastards are allowed
To roam this earth with diplomatic immunity

I may be beaten
A loser in your eyes
But I'm not that stupid
I've been patient
You fail to see the problem
What's the point of changing?
In the end, it wasn't me

I never wanted this
Leader of the "free" world
Thrust upon me
Deer caught in the headlights
Couldn't let daddy down
I failed miserably
What else could I have done?

I'm a project
That has potential
Diamond in the rough
And you're gonna make it shine
In your vision
...Of course.

I'm a piece of clay
Mold me to your heart's content

Four years
Hard to believe
Frankly
It isn't the same
Situations
Locations
Have changed
I can't blame you
For not being as connected
Jumping for joy
Sedate a more apt description