Guilt on my sleeve
Liberal heart beating
I'm gonna save you
Change a ragamuffin
Into a beautiful princess
Fairy tale everyone says
I'm gonna pay your way
And neglect all my needs

You want 2 change the world
Now here's your chance
Opportunity opened the door
Soul soared into the heavens
So if you're blessed 2
Sit in the cat bird seat

It doesn't matter
What I do
Drop a few pounds
Add some muscle
Buy a new wardrobe
Trade in my japoli
Quit this
Change that
The list is endless
I've got no chance with you...

You're my muse
Recurrent theme stalking my mind
What to do?
How will it go?
Are questions haunting
Not promising a kind answer...

Yet I could go on performing the same

Life keeps on occurring
Even when I'm up to my ears
In a mess of my own creation
Nobody stops to offer a hand
They have their own plans
No point in burdening them
I can stand on my own feet

My heart may be beating
But this soul is reeling
Confidence is shaken
Doubts reawaken
And smiles are out of place.

I asked for some time away
From the pressure
Headlines, stress

Eventually will come a day
When you'll have no one 2 blame
But yourself
I'm sure you'll find a way
2 deflect the criticism
Back onto me
The second coming of Jesus?
Arrogant supposition

Keep my nose clean
Face out of the papers
Sooner or later
I may want to shoot angles
Let my hair down
Absorbed in constant prayer
Ambivalence in tandem with a petty mind game

Coming home to you
Waiting for my arrival
Used to be something special
I didn't have to wish for
It seems that I was pushing you
Out the door ever since we met
Now its a reality

Up, down and all around
You fail to look inside my heart
Miserable sap casting judgment
Upon the color of my face
Unlike you, I offer no excuses
I'll take the blame like a man

I hurt you deeply
We grow together
Struggle as one
Never apart but please
Understand that I'm 2 blame
Conscious or not
It doesn't matter
Okay, it was the latter.

Everyone in a hurry
Without getting nowhere
Everyone consumed with worry
But no one seems to care
Save for the dramatic flair
A mind enveloped with static
While posing in the mirror.

You can't tell the truth anymore
Afraid to hurt another's feelings
Over reliance on sensitivity
While standing accused of someone you're not
Equal opportunity muckraker
Yet its funny

Sucker born every day
Crib to casket
You'll make damn sure
That they'll remain protected
Just as long as they tow the line
Don't make waves, allegiance

Time to put money
Where my mind is
The best thing to come along
Can't envision a day without her
Three weeks and counting
Only confusion settling in...

If I want her