My heart may be beating
But this soul is reeling
Confidence is shaken
Doubts reawaken
And smiles are out of place.

I asked for some time away
From the pressure
Headlines, stress
And received it in spades
Now, the reality is sinking in fast
I miss her more then I cared to show
Feel complete when I can't hear
The sound of her sweet voice
But I can't disappear
Into the shadows
I can't breakdown
Retreat from the battles
Sometimes this silence
Is too hard to bear
Suck it up, be a man
This sensitivity you'll never understand.

Hope she's thinking of me
As often as I yearn for her
I guess I never realized
How much I loved her until
She was gone
Insanity of complacency
Finally...
Hitting home where it hurts
This ain't the first time
But I pray its the last
Faith is being tested
Another game to be won
How much pain must be inflicted
Until the damage is done?

P-Dec 6, 2007.