Out of the blue
Shock and surprise
Stabbed a dagger
Through this malaise
Blood pouring out
Corpse still alive
I didn't think it had
A second chance but
Deep behind these walls
I was secretly hoping for a ninth life...

The eyes opened again
And despite a tired gaze
They shined brightly
And a voice once full of doubt
Listlessness soared above
The heavens with power
And thus I soon realized
That if I didn't pull my head
Out of this posterior
It would expire again
With a promise to see it
In the next life if there is
Such a thing...

I never stopped loving you
How could I?
It took a cold slap of reality
Across this face to accpet
That what we had
What I held
Was indeed special
Fear is an addiction
And it nearly put me
Out of commission
But even in the loneliness
Darkest of days, nights
I could hear your heart
Faintly beating and I knew then
That if I retreated completely
I was dead on arrival
Second chance, ninth life
Laughable, deemed certifiable...

But I honored the connection
Said a little prayer
Kept you in my thoughts
And made you aware
That I was still here
If you decided to change your mind
A letter out of nowhere
Made me breakdown
But unlike the tears of yesterday
They weren't of sadness
But of undeniable joy...

P-July 31, 2008.