All I'm asking
Is love me for who I am
If manipulation and
The subtle mind f..k
Is part of the plan
Just leave me alone
I'll make my own way
On my own time...

Sick as this sounds
If you expect me
2 commit suicide
Just to prove my love
You know damn well
I'll never reach those gates above
Just shove me aside
And bamboozle the next loved starved sucker
Entranced by the pretty view...

If you want me
2 walk away
Escape the horrors of intimacy
You'll have a hell of fight
On your hands
Cause we can't f..k the fear away
But it wouldn't hurt 2 try...

I'm afraid
You've heard it all before
I'm twisted
Wires are disconnected
Because if we worry about the future
Present will pass us
Leaving behind baffled expressions
Of lessons we learned as children
For there's something missing in our sordid hearts
Belief in the long shot
Faith is a meaningless word
For the unrepentant
Who'll never be saved
Because they robbed Paul instead.

Stars in our minds
With a pauper's soul
And I'm too damn old
To keep repeating
I was unmade for these times
Who cares If I'm different
Or waltz to a tune that fell out
Of their favor...

Savor each moment
Never get complacent
For it's a poison that kills
Rots every core of our being
Cause if we're afraid
To break out of our shells
For fear of being alone
I'll give you the bullet
And you load the gun
Spare the expressions of surprise
Cause we know that it's very possible
2 lie to ourselves
...We're living proof.

P-Feb 28, 2007.