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THIS GIRL THAT I KNOW
SOMETIMES APPEARS ON MY SHOULDER
ASKING ME IF I LOVE HER
ASKING ME TO SHOW HER
ASKING ME TO DO THIS ONE THING
PROMISING IT'LL ONLY HURT A MINUTE
THEN SHOWS ME WHERE ITS HIDDEN
AND HOW TO PUT THE BULLETS IN IT
GO AHEAD ,PULL THAT BACK
AND PUT IT UP TO YOUR HEAD
BY THE TIME THEY FIND YOU
YOU'LL BE ON THE CARPET DEAD
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AS I THOUGHT FOR A SECOND
ABOUT HOW MY LIFE WAS CONDEMED
I LOOKED TO MY LEFT AND THEN SAW HIM
HE LOOKED BACK AT ME WITH THIS AMAZIN GRIN
I KNEW THEN THAT HE WAS A FRIEND
I THOUGHT IT WAS ALL ABOUT HER
AFTER ALL THIS TIME
AFTER BEING FOOLED BY HER
I KNEW IT WAS YOU THAT I HAD TO FIND
THENTY MINUTES HAD PASSED AND THERE I STILL STOOD
LOOKING IN MY BATROOM MIRROR
NOT FEELING BAD BUT NOT YET FEELING GOOD