Worldly possessions, I don’t have. My life is not my own. My dreams are only nightmares. I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders, the pressure kills a little more of me each day. I see the look of disappointment in their eyes, am who they deeply despise. Stupidly I try to please; I try to make them happy, I even follow in their footsteps, in hopes that they will love me a little more, want me a bit more, to need me awhile longer. Sadly I fail, even at following I fail, and I fall to my knees. Am damaged and bruised and no one wants me now. Am torn up goods, fit for nothing wanted by no one. If I close my eyes maybe it wont hurt so much. Maybe I wont be so cold inside, maybe I wont be so numb. It doesn’t work, and I open my eyes again, colder and number than I was before. Heaven wont take me, hell wont accept me, am unwanted child. The forgotten spectacle. I wonder the streets alone, searching for some light in the dark, dark world, but no one opens their door. I her them whispering, I see them laughing, my clothes all tattered, I’m beyond bruised, bleeding. Nothing matters anymore, now when you’ve been shunned. The world holds you responsible for your actions, and the actions of everyone else. They fail you fail, if they succeed, you still fail. It makes no sense to you, but this is your life. This is the only way you’ve known. Fighting a lost cause, you refuse to be defeated, trying harder and harder until you’ve no way out. Until the crowd has gathered, blocking off your exists, mocking at your futile attempts of escape. They laugh and jeer, you realize this was the plan, from the beginning all the way to the end, they been blaming you, making you fight to survive, when all they really wanted was to see you fail. Your failure feeds their adrenaline, it fuels their fire. You poor pathetic soul, you thought you were winning, when you were really playing their game, your refusal to give up, brought them more pleasure, for you were only prolonging then inevitable. Prolonging your death. And as reality hits you in the face, you fall to your needs, and the pounce on you, you won scream, you wont fight, and as they stomp, n curse, spit n slap, you lay defenseless, your no longer their, your mind has wondered off. Leaving your shell of your former self there. You’re completely numb at last, and nothing can hurt you anymore