As I lay staring at the ceiling
There's a tension from thoughts I'm feeling
People coming in and out of my room
Still I lay here living with my gloom
How I got here I can't seem to recall
I hear my family whispering in the hall
Not knowing how they can help me
For I have an illness that they can't see
They have given me a shot to help me rest
Later i'll take the ink blotter test
I'm laying here my mind full of dread
Why am I here, instead of dead
Why didn't they leave me alone to die
I feel so empty I can't even cry
I can't begin to explain the what for
Of why I don't choose to live anymore
I won't talk I have nothing to say
Why don't they all just go away
All the reasons they are trying to find
But they can't reach inside my mind
They don't know my thought,my feeling
As I lay here staring at the ceiling