Should love really be this hard
Twelve years of silent pain
the accusations, the suffering
the lies...
the words that couldn't be contained

There's times I get so angry
and times I'm so confused
There's times It hurt's so damn bad
and times I feel so used

Is it all worth it in the end
to struggle so hard to maintain
he says he loves me, does he love me
it gets so hard to decipher all his claims

Gathering the dusty shattered pieces of my heart
I try and patch it back together
some won't stick just quite right
and some bare a disturbing resemblance to leather

My life will never again be the same
I have been changed
and not just by name
my soul shall forever remember the love it once embraced

It was this love.. this fleeting lasting love of a lifetime.. that has forever changed the very depths of the reality that I face.