to my lost little angel
To my little baby who I never got the chance to meet but love oh so much.
My little angel who I loved so you are in heaven now but I don’t worry because your with god.
I wish you could have known how happy I was to know you were coming into my life.
You were the miracle I had dreamed about for a very long time.
When that day never came I couldn’t understand .
Why did this have to happen to me, when there are people who don’t deserve it and this never happens to them.
I couldn’t understand why I will never get to see your face or hold you in my arms, sing a song at night to put you to sleep.
Why did god have to love you so much and want you to be with him instead of us.
I wish that you could have seen all the things I wanted for you and know how much you were loved.
I miss you everyday that goes by and I know your daddy is the same way too.
Don’t think that he doesn’t love you, he is just mourning you in his own way.
He loved you as much as I love you and misses you just as much as I do.
I don’t know whether you were a boy or girl but either way I had so much planned.
If you were a girl I would dress you up in the cutest dresses and watch you play with your little dolls.
Dance around like a little princess and let the world know just how beautiful you are.
When you grew up I would plan a party to celebrate you turning into a woman and how proud of you I am.
Worry when you went to high school because I’ll always remember how it was.
Watch you get married and go have kids of your own and remember how I was once that way.
If you were a boy I would buy you all the toys you could ever want.
Have your daddy teach you how to play football,baseball,basketball even though he’s not so good at those.
Try to dress you up in little suits but you would end up just taking them off and running around.
Worry when you finally start going to high school because I’ll always remember how it was.
Watch you bring home “the one” and tell you how happy I am for you but sad because im losing you
In the end the one thing that won’t ever change is that I’ll always love you boy or girl.
One day I might get the chance and you’ll have a little baby brother or sister.
Who knows maybe god will realize your better off here and send you back to me.
If that day comes just remember all the things that are here waiting for you.
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Jenn....
I feel your pain, been there, done that, and no one can really know how bad it feels unless it happens to them....losing an unborn life is particularly hard because, it leaves you wondering, imagining, all the ''what ifs'' and getting your hopes up, all the planning and excitement, and all joy you miss out on, but its nature taking over what we want, and I can totally understand your anger when you see all those bad mothers having kids and neglecting or abusing them, it makes me sick, but everyone will be accountable one day and if these mothers and (fathers) get away with it in this life, they will never get away with it in the next, and they will miss out on an eternity of peace with their kids in paradise, all the children of the world who were taken, by our terms, too early, are the most content and most peaceful of creation, innocent and pure, and not marked by sin from any other soul....they are the lucky ones as much as it hurts, and at the end of the day, nothing we give them will ever compare to the love and blessings of God....and He knows best my friend......peace.