you could tell me a million diffrent ways,
but the outcome is still the same.
i found out that you were hiding me,
and barely spoke my name.
you layed next to another in lace & black
expecting me to believe that you did nothin
but keep your hands neatly folded on your chest!

.....wait one damn minute.......

wasnt she the best thing that you ever fucekd?
The one who would you could never get
enough of?

what the fuck did you take me for?
no need for you to answer that.

you lied to me and yet i still took you back.
in the end i was the fool who,
who is still being fooled again.

i bet you laugh and joke about how stupid
i really am, and how dispite all the
mounting evidence i STILL lay next
to you in bed.

i dont know what to do, you wont
let her leave this life you have made with me.
3 is too many, and the 2 of you
are whats 'really good'

so i guess one day i will just conceed
that no part of me is what you
really want or need.
what i wish is that you would just come
out and say it:
' i love you mami, but its not the same.
she is what drives me to act this way,
the daily emails, and the text. the long
good night before bed. the dreams are
what i wish my reality could be, and so
sorry for you my lil hula queen we must
depart, for my mrs. T is all i need.'

dont be a chicken shit, like me.
just 'do what you gotta do, dont miss
understand me'

i cant say good bye because you
have that hold on me.

so i beg you to change it all,
and just start loving me.

you could. but you cant because
you love her more instead.