"Had fingers in my eyes, had needles in my veins,
a knife right through my heart... I am a victory."

These lines are borrowed from the Megadeth song 'Victory'.

NOW!!! The decision’s made.
To give it up for good,
HARD!!! An understatement,
To describe what it took.
SCARED!!! I may not make it.
My entire life shook.
THEN!!! I found these lyrics,
And they became my hook.

Had fingers in my eyes, had needles in my veins,
a knife right through my heart... I am a victory.

HELL!!! I’ve seen its’ dark halls,
In maddening temper,
FREE!!! To live as we’re meant,
To, by Mother Nature,
CLEAN!!! Of intoxicants
And running a canter,
QUIT!!! Megadeths’ lyrics
Became me sole mantra.

Had fingers in my eyes, had needles in my veins,
a knife right through my heart... I am a victory.

I Had my School-Yard Years, Had that pathetic smile
Two Different Suicides... I am a victory!
02/02/08 ADO