Maybe I did get it. Maybe I was fine
Maybe Hepatitis, maybe next in line,
Maybe AIDS had got me, maybe I survived
Maybe it was only ever in my mind?
Maybe I would crumble, maybe I would deal
Maybe the last hurdle, maybe wasn’t real,
Maybe sharing needles, maybe I had got
More than I had wanted, maybe, maybe not.

Maybe I’d be clear, maybe positive
Maybe I was frightened, maybe I would live,
Maybe seemed more likely, maybe I was wrong
Maybe you never know deep down in your soul?
Maybe I should believe in my self-esteem
Perhaps I’m actually living out my dream,
To be like my father and I think I’ve got
Closer then I had thought, maybe, maybe not.

The anguish that I felt? I was clear!!!
20/03/08 ADO