My Mom's been gone
these nine years on

There's no place in your life
I want to be

I have a place to go
I've never been
And yet
When I'm there
I'm sure I'll know

I shall not

There…
In light, shadows reveal
Darkness survives

Take me across the water, for only there shall I find peace
Cast away my ashes there and grant then my release
Take me across the water, be it pond, or lake, or sea

There…

In light, shadows reveal
Darkness survives

In darkness, lights conceal
Illume denies

In light a place, where shadows cannot dwell
In darkness, a place where light cannot dispel

Everyday I wake and find I am closer to the end.
With so much trouble in the world I foolishly pretend
that I can make a difference, change the course of history.

Despite all the ways before me
I choose to take just one
I can do no more
I am not blind to my choices
Only to the consequence
Of my choosing
The momentum of my past
Gathers behind me

My monster watches me from the darkness where
I have kept it hidden and fed with my despair
Its hunger is forever as long as I remain alive

In silent night
In dark despair
Where spirit flies

From searching light
From those who care
Dare open eyes

To blinded sight
To soul laid bare
Spare your disguise

For love’s respite