Distant memories caress my hands as the
soft sand pours between these fingers that grasp to hold onto a lost cause..
My muffled cries trickle out like water, echoing the missing beats of my heart which
like butterflies colour this wall of emotion that I cannot embrace or understand, let alone share

The grey sky brightens by thoughts of the years filled with your voice,
The smiles that breathed so much soul & spirit into my life….
days were fuelled by the strongest of feelings, the kind that take your breath away,
the sort that silently & cruelly accompany one along their road..
Ah, life beautiful life now forever tormented by your face!
Oh but were there another that could replace that sweet void born of your emotional death
Will there be? Ever..?

Confusion once more knocks on my heart fruitlessly gasping for air in an ocean of despair...
The sea spray is now just a bitter substitute for the storms that we sailed through
I smile alone as the rain paints the past on the sand where I sit now…
Tis but a faint shadow of a story that will soon be washed away...
The wind howls loudly now as it dries your words that remained without direction.

I wait for the waves to melt away your footprints that were always next to mine
I wait for them to be returned to the deepest part of your unchartered heart
I shall leave it all to sink with my most treasured of memories - safe but not forgotten.
You’ll be surrounded by a bounty of love while waiting to be discovered again..
But by whom, now that my time in your hour glass has emptied all grains?

Shall I stay here with eyes locked upon the horizon as Calypso did for Ulysses?
until the sun rises?
until it warms away my cold hurt..
until the sea of my soul calms..
until this raging storm within my mind settles..
until the last memento reminiscent of this shipwrecked life is finally washed away.