I can’t do this anymore, this the beginning of new problems
I thought I could back it up and flip it but I see that I can’t solve ‘em
This thing, this abyss of literal blood, sweat and tears, I can’t even form words yet alone a complete thought
This was not at all what I signed up for, this isn’t the plan that I bought
I held you in the highest regard, never once did I jade the thought of you
But even as you turned your back to me, I kept face front, willing to face the truth
I know that shit ain’t easy for you I know it’s hard for you to say
The shit you have embedded in your heart, but I don’t understand the things you say
You hide behind you words, I stay trapped in my thoughts
I try to make sense of the situation but I a catch 22 I’m caught
I thought it was you, I thought it was you, I thought it was you that was for me
But everyday I wake, everyday I think, everyday it’s becoming clean and clearer to see
Never thought it would happen but we seemed to have grown apart
And shit to be honest with you, even before all of this, you shattered my heart
I’m not pointing the finger or placing a blame
I just now understand I’ll never share your name
Just wasn’t meant for me Daddy, I wasn’t meant to be your girl
I guess I have to be complacent, not content in my little World
I mean life, cause in order to have a World you need a center
And now with you gone, this abyss that I made is what I shall now enter
You had my heart, you had my love, you had my thoughts, and you had my life
It’s just now, this here, I realized… I had you in my life
So no longer do you have to hide behind the words you say, speak or text
I understand the underlying meaning of words unspoken but not stressed
Would love to say it’s been a pleasure, but I can’t hide behind my words, no this is sheer pain
I finally realized it… I no longer have the World to gain…