How to start telling all of you who know
About the pain from my heart
To my wrists and arms
I haven't really thought about it yet
Not until now - Not only cause I felt like it
But have you ever thought of how if would be?
Your mother always gone & father blaming you?
Friends yelling, other friends trying to replace you?
All of them fighting you in the middle
Things between you and a best turning upside down?
Never turning back even if you wanted it to?
Only thing to hug is a bear from long ago
And those who think they understand
The guy who you were sure that liked you
Saying things to make your life worse
But he does not know what's going on
And if he did and cared, he'd probably be sorry
He's doing things to try to make you jealous
Wondering, "What's going on with you?"
When you seem to not care about what he's trying to do
To your emotions
Now that's one day it seems but to top it off
You cut yourself only with a kitchen knife
From out of a drawer
Nothing more - Now imagine all that happened over and over
How's that for a life?
All I need is to be left alone
Or it makes it all worse
Because there's no escape from all those listed things
It was because of people like you this happens
It was because of things you do (did) that make me feel
Like I want to scream
I've only tried to kill the pain
But only brought on so much more than I tried to end
Only because of people like you
Just all let me have my time alone
Like how they used to be
They used to let me drag on by myself
With no friends so I will again
Because I see what trouble it brings
For those who aren't meant to be
Getting mad only makes it worse for me
So just PLEASE let me be...