Love Uncontrolled

Love is hard work, so I’ve been told.
But what part of the vows say, to have and to control.

I use to make excuses for the way you treated me.
Some would say I was blind but clearly I could see.

I feel like God is punishing me for my sin.
Because the first time I left, I promised God I wouldn’t go back again.

But here I am holding back the tears.
Wondering why oh why did I stay for five years.

You treated me like an animal locked up in a cage.
My heart is full of love, but my mind is filled with rage.

Living with you was like walking on an egg shell.
When you were happy it was heaven, when you were mad it was hell.

I tried not to provoke you in anyway at all.
But the moment I made a mistake, Bitch is what I’m called.

You call me names and put me down in every way you can.
Your Ike Turner’s biggest fan.

So the vows are clear, its to have and to hold.
And you will soon find out that "Love Is Uncontrolled".

scary as hell

My kid sister lived with abuse for 30 some years .I'd stand up to him and move her out she'd always go back.That abused killed her at 51.So if this is real for god's sake get out and stay out.

Gloria

Physically I'm Out

I'm so sorry to hear about your sister, and yes I made it out physically, but I'm now dealing with the mental abuse. I've not been able to form any kind of relationship because of all the mental damage that has been done, but my poetry helps me, in fact this is what helped me to make it out of that relationship.

Towards the very end I would lock myself in a separate room from him and write about the mental, verbal, and sometimes physical abuse that I was going through. I'm able to share this with you - a total stranger because through poetry I feel connected to everyone on this forum, and I am no longer blaming myself for the abuse. I've also forgiven myself for staying as long as I did and putting my two kids through it.

Thanks for caring and sharing.

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