Tell me this isn't just a lesson
tell me that you are in this
tell me you won't go after anyone else even before we wed
first in the physical
as we die to the corrupted flesh
and then in our thoughts
and the spiritual
even after we wed
as we enter into perfection
if it is your will
that we are married
and are spouses
having the same publicly unknown name
and are not separately distinguished

Tell me you aren't playing the harlot
and that even your doubled endeavors
no longer consummate or begin

If this is some kind of offering
either to Gad, Meni, or both
let it no longer take place
but let the coming together of commitment, devotion, and covenant
and the foundation of these be laid

I am not working in secret
though darkness is still light unto those who are His
I can't take the outworkings or core
which is half and half
and that is undone concerning fate

My ties to what isn't the best
and to what won't enter in
my ties to what shall not consummate
of which
only by believing in them
do they exist-

it is these that I have not dealt falsely with
nor crossed the line
for I have dealt with everything that has come to pass
through the things which have been said and done

Once there is doubled behavior
only through directly addressing it
can the patrons of it
come unto having clean hands
remember what Elijah said on Horeb
that other than him
of those who were left
there were none

I surely know that what is merely resistance and outworkings from things such as these
that they can't exist in His oneness
nor can they hinder any
who really run their race

This is in the way of His Promises
knowing also that in Him there must be Elijah's clean hands
I say this specifically in regards to our inheritance together
by which we may exclusively be 'you,' 'one,' and 'us'
if this is what you want

Please don't lie to me
let's let the old things and scales fall from our eyes
and chains which hold our feet and hands
as prisoners of hope
let's meet together

How could you do this
regarding us having any relationship?
unless this was again as Tamar
and the seed spilt

Without threat
I speak unto you

I did not deal with you
defiling you
or going beyond your permission
but I spoke in vision
even in His oneness
just as wisdom and understanding
are my very close kin

What are your true intents?
even knowing my situation

And what is charity to me?
even if getting over things is said to be sufficient
or the way the world works

For these are what actually create a victim
though in letting go and gaining initiative
people may be praised by men

Other men's answers is what subjected me to this
and my blood is precious in His sight
just as the martyrs, prophets, and apostles

I have not been forceful
do you want to be with me no matter what?

I did not use you
or attempt to know you
only for some kind of example

I did not choose you
merely by name
I am not merely rebounding
Or reaching in pity
or speaking in 'ifs'
nor saying that we should agree on being together
if we do not find another by some prognosticated date

Pure love is not found in any projected necessity of traditional state
nor any old wives' fable
such as what is borrowed, new, old, or blue
regarding signs to equate-

But by sincerity and one's asking, seeking, and knocking
where there is truly whole seeking of God and love
and thus no substance to adulterate-

All things work for good to those who love God
but He also knows the root and sum of everything's way
Jesus is the zodi, torah, and the river of everything everlasting
and pleasurable that shall remain

In all true genuineness and purity
without legalism and vanity
do you want me to be the fullness under God
of your name's winning wrestling?
As "God is fulfillment"
and every months' complete perfection
by which we
if so fully chosen and sought
may be joined together and united
pure and undefiled
in the hearts’ desires
which are Promised
even including privacy and fame?

Please
and with full discernment and sincerity
choose this day
whether these promises
concerning an eternal personal spousal love
concerning us
will be what you die or live for
And please tell me directly
That I may surely know it is you
for doubleness was in your first relations concerning me
and I don't know where your singleness and sincerity lies
nor should any manipulate