I.
I don't know what to do
honestly there are so many contexts
that I don't even have enough to put one foot on
and in the physical
don't in faith know what to say to you

At the same time
I feel every enmity
and nearly every good and every perfect gift
seems to be unable to physically conceive
also being set to create the to and fro against which Job prayed-
that of a leaf

I don't think this is evil coming back on me
I think this is the reserve of darkness
with the foundation based on what isn't established yet
also personally including me

And what did I do
of which I have not repented of
nor born repentance's fruits?

I did not create this division
nor it's false hope
though I was subjected to it
even from those who were my own

II.
And am I a fool?
for unto Saul what did David speak?
though also he had people in the wilderness
and through the testimony of Jesus Christ
and the ways of the Spirit
all of our spoil, family, and children are coming to us

I have received from the LORD
though it I never left
concerning sowing to His life in the mortal flesh
but without the word established by two or three witnesses
I am as Jeremiah, and the prophets

His Word surely did come to pass
but shall we choose what is not
so that we may be wise in our own conceits
sacrificing in the clefts
that the Spirit may rot?

For this sin and death
the sufferings and afflictions
are up unto my neck
and I desire not
the outworkings of corruption
and I am assured also
of the crown and promises
now and today
our earthly and heavenly inheritances
though neither of them do we see yet

Shall we doubt the promise
for now and today
our earthly inheritance and gift?
when we also do not yet see nor apprehend the things
of which He promises to give concerning heaven?

For I did not forsake gathering together
nor prophesying
and giving His words
just as David said
but have prepared, believed, and worked
though partial
but also unto the whole
and I pray that there is preparation also
in everyone
unto establishing
for I am as Zechariah
unless established by two or three witnesses

I did not hold back
and surely even in partial testimony
His words were true

I entered in firstly
though this is boasting
and nearly all
apart from Him sending me
would by themselves have fallen away
and come to lose

I did not deceive
nor conive
nor speak falsely
nor in doubleness
but in every step
and singleness
I spoke the truth in love
though men's understandings were in themselves
and even in this
what I spoke was right, and hewn
as He rode in on a mule
in sincerity, purity, singleness and genuine
harvesting also at noon
though in revelation and His divinity
I did save every 'planet and moon'

I gave myself and set myself
though I also in authority dwelt

For He was the first
and in the cleft I looked to Him
walked AS He did
truth being my belt

According to the word of God
all things may still come to pass
at His command
according to His severity
while I, the poor, and needy
are saved
along with the talents
which are preserved
when He comes with HIS sword
on His thigh
entreated by His beloved
in truth, humility, and righteousness to shrewdly gird

Therefore is it the demands of His elect
which I have no right to serve?
Is it perfection which is holding the establishment of His kingdom back?
for surely it is antichrist
to claim that it has not come in the flesh
though we still carry corruption
but TOGETHER also we are to suffer outside of the camp

For if I am crucified again
and put to an open shame
surely it will not be to the called's faith
but thorns, briers, and curses will come
also giving those who may have been saved
scarcely in regards to every sinner's ways
to have their end in being eternally burned

Therefore since I also took upon myself
your giving of yourselves
and setting yourselves
though you also did in the cleft partake
so is my vision of the red shimmering glass pane
the end of all who also now dwell
as the sea of glass
therefore all being unable to run their race?

For even Jesus took upon Himself
the giving of myself
and setting of myself
as I in the cleft looked to Him
but still by His mercy
the ability to love and obey
was the severity of God made known to me
and I raced to enter in

Therefore all are without excuse
for any who call themselves faithful in God's house
or already have
are open before Him
even more so
now that knowledge has been increased
and the ease of lightness of His way given and displayed
unto any who are the called
having the hope to be saved

For many are called but few are chosen
though even the real children of Abraham
are as grains of sand
for here is the way, truth, and life:
even in preparing the way
there must first be the willingness
and therefore the faith
of agreeing with Him
and believing
being ready to answer for one's hope
and as if to win
in running the race

For surely in counting the cost
and endurance
if we come up short
and do not concerning the beauty, commaning of light
and creating of what does not exist
still gain
then the grace of God has been received in vain

For my lowness, meekness, and sensitivity
and weakness'
are also prudently tied in with the whole body
both if they wholly abide in Him
or fall away
and this is the faithfulness of Moses
and God's longsuffering
and Paul also in this way did cultivate

III.
God's Word has come to me
and it was good
speaking of the path of the righteous and just
and the establishment of His kingdom
along with the earthly gift and promises
sown in the Spirit
building treasures in heaven
the kingdom of God inside of us
where incorruption even now remains
that this path is to be traversed and trod
as the heavenly gift and promises
are also reserved
and thus shall the exceedingly great army serve
even all of darkness nearly only spiritual discerned
as it is all by sight and as a non existent thing
God's glory and praise to be made thus
unto the perfect day