All I know
is that I am the LORD's freedman
in ways I can't describe

I get through things that are impossible and survive

I leave sure things
that are in the world
and perfect by sight

And then I end up with this pot of gold
at the end of my rainbow
and the noose eludes me
and through my weakness
is there His glory and life

If the LORD's power is going to be in me
it is going to be by the Spirit
by which I also have my life

I can not go into things
of which the unsurety could lead into strife

This isn't laziness
this is holding fast what I have
so that I may keep my crown of life

This isn't wickedness
because I am not leaving obligation
as if I hurt others' rights

I need to stay and cultivate what I have been given
and continue in Him
for that is from where the talent and mina derive

Perhaps I shall be met
and completely changed
through His delgihts

or come upon another sojourner
who shares my present day and nights

But I can not enter in
to the things of which there is no vision
if I were to lack knowledge and faith
who knows what would be the desires of my heart
or what to begin with
and this is not walking by sight
because it is by the knowldge of God
that we have His great and precious promises
and it is the inward kingdom which He says to seek
also adding onto us every provision
for His will that we need

It may be that tomorrow this changes
but according to my discernment and planning now
I would be left in the same futility
but without His Spirit
therefore worse off
as if also battling Ai
but being a soldier who didn't hear the plan of how :)

There are some things I need to take care of
and be assured of
before that I gain

the LORD has started with me
working from the bottom up
and it has been to His praise

Therefore I am going to embark on being refined and made
Our ways, name, and praise