O April
I still want to be with you

You are in charge of our meeting
even if I see you
and even if I talk to you
as far as the thoughts and intents of your mind and heart
as well as your desires
and if you'll be mine

I still want you to come to me
and me to you
though I also did feel your rejection
and wondered in times
why you even included the former
in how you first came to me
and then also continued
even unto now

I am willing to both work through it all
and renew
and I am ready to forgive
just as you also might want me to repent

After all that took place
am I supposed to just give way?
am I supposed to just let go
and begin again
also not knowing for sure your past, future, and present tense?
not to mention your ongoing or offgoing motives

Without ultimatum I have given that from which I am clear
severity and truth
just as I will not be treated unfair

Should it be the cost that you did not count enough
I still shall not arbitrate nor relent
in giving back the inheritance
even as Jacob's wrist

should I be called a slanderer
or one who defiles
it is true that I know
that I am free from the blood of all
and have not endeavored in anything which was so sown

Should it be that you say that you feared what was possible with me
I know again that not even with the Jews did He show partiality

Should it be that you have taken another in my place
I still truly know the foundation and latter ends of that state

Should it be that you are not even after your own given name
even as the rest here
I know that I have one talent a pearl in spirit
and another openness of the soul
while yet another talent as the body has already symbolically been taken into heaven
though it may not have been her own

Because of the cleanness of my hands I am free
and yet I am also given in His covenant
even waiting the fulfillment of His Promise given into the flesh
for I have sown in truth
though the enemy may have desired tares
even in my weakness' Christ was present and strong
and giving salvation
surely with what was important I was true
even as unto God, soundly knowing "Who is like You?"

But I shall receive
and I shall be satisfied when I do

What more can I say
and what more should I do?
Who has kindled a fire
and in whom?

Bound upon me are all the talents of the world
they are as ornaments
even dividing the good and evil

Not that I shall trespass
or that I have
or that I have done anything but save in His name

But it shall also be known that as His two witnesses I shall not be put to shame
even as the Philadelphians were given the promise so sure
as He also spoke in Isaiah
concerning the worship that shall come even farther than my door

Am I in sin with any of this?
For the two witnesses are even only killed by the beast ascending out of the pit
and if I shall be killed in that way
who would it be through?
just as I have His authority over any who fight me
as power is God's
and is not even found in false humility-
It is from God that I am blessed

And in victory and zeal
as well as in every good and perfect gift
I am in rest
I have fully made the field fit
and prepared the way
I have built the house
and the walls are all stayed
as the kingdom of God within me now
fully has the foundation in understanding
by which even every dominion of darkness is without
and this is also true
concerning any agreement
and every noun

Gad and Meni have fallen
and even the mouse
that animal of the unfixable
even out of everyone's mouth

I can't make you come to me
or love me
like me
or want me

But openly I ask:
What do I have for you
and what do you have in me?

I am not even going to give you an amount of time
such as this month

I have already given everything
even what did and does not forcibly have to be done

Who shall accuse infatuation?
Anyone?
I have set my face as a flint