Who wants to be apologized to
over and over again?

I found this security with God
also as forgiveness leads into fearing Him
and He is God who forgives

I know the present knowledge made possible
and I know love's extents

But I am breaching
and I am discouraged
because I don't want goodness to turn into counterfeit
and I can't be born to unreceptive hands

and at the same time
even
the babies were left in Egypt
in the fields of Goshen
and that is the context of Ezekiel 16

But at the same time also
the evil is not what and how I really think
and I want to be with you in the love and goodness
that I is even beyond thoughts, and desires
as the spirit, and stomach are from where the rest of us spring
though also we still don't just isolate this with everything

I was never strong in
nor strengthing myself in judging
and maligning things
Actually quite the opposite
as I found ways to alight everything
because of the void which was pressing in

But I found this even not to be true sincerity
and after also following the Spirit
and preparing in Him

Evil found an opportunity
to pluck out both of my eyes
with one throw
and in the distance
and or dissonance
I neither want to quit
nor forwardly offend

Please
if you do delight
I ask you to understand
that this still is the tares of the harvest
and the to and fro between His life and His death
and the sin I fully admit

Before
my stability was in repentance
however also with His fullness
now stability has come to holiness
and I was preparing for it's steady pace
but it seems as if soundness' cleft
is in filling the room
and giving the good, better, best
and spoil for being tossed to and fro as a leaf in the wind

Offense's strength is enmity
and it's sting is also discouragement
as one of Satan's heads

Everything is working out for good
as also Psalm 92 did come into effect

Ai was being finished
as also I had completed my work
and desired to have a foundation that didn't include affliction

And I kind of feel like
the lost cause
risk versus rewards
and same old same old
stances against this are set

I said I found 'my marbles' in the bitter pool
and you know I think I have hallowed His name
though also in the spirit and flesh there was an enmity of things
and so as I strike this rock
I think water should come forth
and me not be rejected from on this earth entering in

Just as also Psalm 89 shows
as well as David
that we may come before Him and give Him our complaints

We should pour our heart out before Him
for He is a refuge for us
and in that our preconceived faith, hope, and love may remain

perhaps when we meet
it will be
that it is our desires which are the same
while our shortcomings and stains
have been taken away

God even told me today
though I was not in sin
as my heart was what was being illuminated

that the spirit was going to have to be focused on now
though there also is a to and fro here
and I want you to know
from the deepest parts of me
there is a name that I do not know
which is even unspeakable
beyond love
beauty
wisdom
and strength
that it is you
me
and what is yet to be

I believe
as the prophets did
in this type
both what
and what manner of time
This in the Spirit of Christ
and we even now are in His sufferings
as we abide in His name
and I am searching
and inquiring
the way, truth, and life
for I have the love
for the assuredly near fullness and glory