Let me get this straight
everyone calls me a freak
but the love of God says to not call
or talk to me

So when I fall
there are no Christians to help me up

I can't count on anyone
because it is by my own strength
after Christ
to do only some of the things
not everything
because then I could be said to believe in salvation by works

So let me get this straight
after God has worked in me
then people can look on me
but not you
because you are married
and I loved you
but you wouldn't tell me you were married
because I had to find out about the sin's you wanted me to see

So you call yourself a Christian
a follower and worker of Christ

You are nothing but a hypocrite
and your folly
your folly
has been made evident

I shall not boast before God
but before men
For God is my boast
and the one who has exalted me
while you shall never know true romance
nor glory in any goodness from your hands

And this is for the rest
for those who condemned and judged me
and then also even after I began walking on His path

Paranoia is not unreal
because it is based on what others do feel

Is that impossible
to feel other's thoughts?

Is it only my fault
that I sinned
and was caught?

No it is not
and within my sins

you in trying to judge me
are responsible
for what you lacked
in loving me
and knowing God
as I should have
because that is His command
if you really wanted to know and judge

Besides the fact
that I see people only examining themselves
so that they do not look bad

I will tell you what
I will come and look at what has become of you
along with the other saints
even in our romance
where brotherly love
and spousal love
are truly esteemed
for your trust has been in your own riches and name

You thought that entering in
if you thought it was anything at all
was the fruit from the strength of your own hand

You were in bed with Jezebel
and the difference between you and me
was that I don't have the spirituality
and lack of
which would have made someone fall away

What's wrong?
Can't do anything without others agreeing with you?
Can't do anything without the speech being smooth
or zealousy courting
even within your own cliques
thinking you
even in your numbers
are the few?

My God is the God of Jacob
and the God of Elijah
and the God of Paul
I am not of non-denominations either
you were only allowed to come upon me
so that glory would be found in overcoming your plight
and you were not chosen
because from your calling
you only gloried in strife

Because you are deceived
thinking that whatever offends you
as long as the offense you have
isn't too much
is proof of another's iniquity
what, did you think that was my way?
no but I was bearing your sins from the beginning
but you chose the wrong way

along with your own plank
having no oil as the widow
who was also poor
and received from the LORD

in your own conceits you are wise
and do not answer the door

puffing yourselves up in your lack of religion
while equity and God's wholeness are buried and traded away
while you claim to keep out division

But you are only the imaginations of your own pride
yes unto the LORD do you attest
and yes
do you physically have things
but you are blind, dumb, dull, hard, and deaf

There is your number of five
of what your soul is contrived

you are paranoid of the spoken word of Christ
autistic in focusing only on not offending the world
also being dyslexic in shutting down prophecies
that do not agree with your own Babylonian pearls

And yet you still claim to be disciples
because of the lack of physical sins
when really you have only fornicated with demons
and let them lock you in