Nothing seems to be going right
And everything's a blur.
I lie in bed and wonder if I can take it anymore
My head is splitting and my thoughts are jumbled
And I wonder if this is the beginning
Of something worth waiting for.
I want to pick up my problems
And throw them out the door.
I don't know what to say,
I don't know what to do.
I feel like I'm drowning,
Sinking in my guilt.
Did I do it to myself,
Or is it all because of you?
I can't trust no longer,
No matter how I try.
I looked inside my soul to see what I could find.
All I could see was the darkness left behind
A memory so tormenting,
It haunts me both day and night.
Why must I carry this burden?
Why on my shoulders did this nightmare fall?
Couldn't it have been someone else?
I don't wish this on my worst enemy.
My mind is racing,
My heart is pounding,
My soul is crying to be set free.
Inside I'm drowning in my tears
But on the outside, I'll never show my fears.
I lay in waiting,
Constantly praying,
For this nightmare to finally end.
In my heart I know it will be okay,
But then things come flooding back
And I remember yesterday.
I'm dying in my sorrows.
Will I slowly drift away?
Only time will tell
When my dreams have passed away.
Only then will the spirit allow me to be me
And once again set me free
From this, everlasting nightmare dream.