This is part of a series and must be read through the end to understand. It's long I know but only way to get full effect. Kind of old too but don't hold that against me.

Turmoil

I lay there,
Holding my friend's
Lifeless body.
I didn't know.
I didn't know!
The blood is everywhere,
All over me.
My room.
Like a crimson river.
I didn't know
What I thought this would be like
But this isn't it.
Maybe I thought I would go first.
"I love you, too, Mercedes."
"I love you, too."