I just don't understand how my heart can still beat
And how you can pretend everything is fine so naive
I was'nt trying to run I was trying to breathe
Because loving you is like a rope choking the life out of me
My lifeless moves and the rountine cries
So I try to free myself because I ask is this really life?
It's not that I didn't care you didn't want me to go
It's just that ur love is making me hurt and it's hard to grow
You say you'd fight just to have me by your side
But when I'm there your fighting me ur so called wife
You want me so close yet you push me away
I have so many mixed emotions I want to leave yet I stay
You pierce my heart and broke my soul
And then have to nerve to call this place home
Homeless at heart is our truth
Because I run from it fearing you
I'm tired of being tired of it all
I didn't think you would be my down fall
I wanted closure and lots of warmth feeling true love
But I'm starting to believe it was all in my head just made up