This is not what I signed up for.
Late nights with nothing but you on my mind.
I need to get you gone gone,
Because each and every time,
My mind is cramped from another thought of you.
And who I thought you were,
And who I was actually involved with.
This is not what I signed up for.
Pretending like I still have a significant other,
Like I’m not separated from the one who knows me best.
I close my eyes and put my head down,
Exhausted from this trap,
This pit,
I still feel like this pain has not been faced.
Ignored under the ignorance is bliss policy,
I suppose.
No,
This is not what I signed up for.
Every night I am reminded with the loneliness,
No interest in others anymore.
That false dilemma trapped in wanting to give chances,
Anger and disrespect clashing both ways.
Because only I can push your buttons like that.
Still I wake up in the night,
Stuck with the thought of you and him.
Wondering who is living the bigger lie between us two.
This is not what I signed up for.
I feel like I have been alone this whole time,
But every night I am reminded with my broken heart.