A HOLE INSIDE MY SOUL
A Hole Inside My Soul
While in school when I was young
I always sat alone.
There was that feel of being strange,
marched to a different tone.
My body was like all the rest,
like those of friends and kin.
But way back then there was that rub,
no comfort in my skin.
No matter how much I’d yell
how loud that I would shout,
a hole inside my soul
let my spirit all leak out.
As I grew inside me felt
like chaos had run wild.
Emotions took me left then right
and never calm or mild.
Soon I found an emptiness
that grew and over took.
Whatever tried to fill that void,
serene was soon forsook.
No matter how much I’d yell
how loud that I would shout,
a hole inside my soul
let my spirit all leak out.
As a man I heard it said
“a hole was in my soul.”
Just like the villain in a play
it had the leading role.
I tried and tried,
day in and out,
to fill this void in me.
Discovering
in liquid form,
booze solved this trickery.
No matter how much I’d yell
how loud that I would shout,
a hole inside my soul
let my spirit all leak out.
It worked awhile way back when
and soon I did realize.
It fueled the emptiness inside,
became anesthetized.
Spirit gone, I was bankrupt
my mind was so unclear.
A spiritual awakening,
a cure to fix my fear.
No matter how much I’d yell
how loud that I would shout,
a hole inside my soul
let my spirit all leak out.
Today I try to fill that void,
it’s one day at a time.
Using things like faith and hope,
support from my Divine.
My soul is now a place
for things kept close to me.
Acceptance and a willingness,
these things will set me free.
No longer in captivity
or just thinking why.
A child sitting by myself
assuming I was shy.
No matter how much I’d yell
how loud that I would shout,
a hole inside my soul
let my spirit all leak out.
I now know I’m not alone
not strange or most unique.
There are so many just like me
that have the same physique.
Baby steps just twelve of them
I’ve done all in a row.
They’ve filled that hole once in my soul,
allowing me to grow.
No longer do I have to yell,
no more a big whirlwind.
I’ve filled that hole found in my soul,
I live inside my skin …
Copyright © 2007 Ronald J. Edwards
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great poem, with imagery that reaches and touches...
oldaspirationsneverdie...7
Great descriptive imagery that details the emptiness in a troubled soul.
I know that place so very well, and your poem offers some hope
and solitude! Great word choices and excellent flow as well, gives
this piece a nice quality, like a friend, you've known for many years
who suddenly gives you a lift...
Friend of Bill W. ?
Ronald J. Edwards
Trinity Ink
http://trinityinkexperiencestrengthandhope.blogspot.co
Hello OAND,
Seem's like your also a friend of Bill W. In anycase I do speak from experience. If you could relate to my poem " A HOLE IN MY SOUL"
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Trinity Ink
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