WIde awake eyes blurry and burning from the sleepless nights
mind constantly wondering
going down a cold lonely road towards memory lane
"why do i live?"
I ask myself over and over again
my life has been shit from jump
I hate it
my memories i want gone forever
but in reality i know they wouldn't
and it saddened me even more
I tried releasing the rage that flows thru my veins until there was none left
I tried numbing the pain with pills and drowning my sorrows
I even attemted to hang my thoughts but nothing seemed to work
The memories the hurt and pain seemed immortal
no matter how much i try
it always seemed to find me
now i dont give into happiness cause happiness comes sorrow
for me it will come either way
i cry
i cry
looking at myself in the mirror
she....she will die in misery never knowing how it feels to be free!