I understand the loss u feel....I had a miscarriage not long ago....but its how you lost it, that's rubbing salt into the wound....I'm so sorry for ur loss and why it happened, life's full of nasty lessons, but know that your baby is waiting to reunite with you in the gardens above.....there's no limbo or whatever they call it....babies belong in paradise and both our babies are happier than any other child alive on earth....peace.