For almost eleven years it has been all about you.
I have just been a figure in the background
Taking up space. Filling a void.

How many times have we been driving around town
And a car will pull up next to us on the passenger side,
You look over and the guy driving the car next to us is looking
Our way. What do you do. Why the hell is he looking at me?
He must think I look good!

You egotistical jack ass!
Every body is not looking at you!
What if he was looking at me?
I asked you that one time. Remember?
You said maybe he is but it looks like he is looking at me.

You are not that pretty to look at that every one we pass would
Want to look at you. How can you be so conceited?
You don’t think that I am pretty?
You don’t think people would want to look at me?
You know what? I am beautiful. I am worth looking at.

But it is not always about looks.
It has always been all about you.
What you want. What you need.
You need to get laid? You are horny?
It’s been a whole week?
I felt it was my duty as wife to take care of my husband
So I comply. I give in. I give you what you want.

It is all about you.
You are hungry? I fix your dinner.
Even if what you want is not something that I eat.
I will eat a sandwich, as long as you are happy.
That is what it has been about for eleven years.
Making sure you and Matt are happy.

You want to wear that shirt with those pants
But they are dirty?
Let me wash them for you.
Never mind that it is only two articles of clothing
And will pretty much waste water.
But hey we must be made of money. Just ask Matt.

You don’t want to go out tonight with my friends who invited us out?
What do you want to do? Oh, your buddy from work invited us over?
That’s where we are going? Thanks for asking me.
It’s always about you isn’t it?

You know what…I am tired of this bull shit.
IT IS NOT ALL ABOUT YOU ANYMORE.
Things are about to change. And change drastically.
It has been a week since you got any action?
Guess it will be another week then because I don’t feel like it.
I don’t feel sexy enough with you anymore to take my clothes off for you.
You have a hand, use it, because until I start getting the respect I deserve,
You ain’t touching this.

I am through trying to please some one who takes me for granted.
I have had enough. It is far time I take a stand, speak my mind.
You don’t like it? Tough Shit. That is the way it is going to be now.
I have found my self worth again. I know I am a beautiful person.
I am a good mother, a good wife, a good person and YOU are not going to
Treat me any different now.

I DEMAND respect.
I DEMAND appreciation
I AM WORTH IT.
If MY friends want us to go out with them and you don’t want to go.
Don’t go. I will have more fun without you anyway.
You can sit at home and wallow in your self pity because I am out having a good time.
Don’t call me every hour either asking when I will be home like you have done in the past.
I will be home when I get there. When I am ready to come home, I will.

If I don’t feel like cooking, I won’t. You are a big boy, fix it yourself.
If I don’t feel like washing clothes, I don’t have to. Do it yourself.
I will fix for dinner what I WANT to eat. Oh, it has mushrooms in it.
Tough, pick them out. Too small to see all of them. Suck it up and be a big boy now
No one ever died from eating mushrooms. Just close your eyes, you won’t even know they are there. What are you two?

It is not all about you any more.
I know you will be hurt, but you will get over it.
I am taking my life back.
I am going to do what I want to do.

I AM a beautiful person.
I AM worth it.
I AM sexy, sensual and wonderful.
No I am not conceited.
I have found my self worth
I love myself, for with out that I am nothing
And you have stripped me of those feelings for so long.

If that is the way you liked it
If you liked me being in the background
Just a shadow on the wall
You are in for a big surprise
I am DONE with that.
I am stepping into the foreground where I belong.
I am moving to the front of the bus with my head held up high
Because I am somebody and I am loved.

IT IS NOT ALL ABOUT YOU ANYMORE