In one of the summer days

I hold a gun and shoot my head

Felt nothing but the heat of blood running through my brain

I lay down in the dark.. thinking bout a reason

An answer for wut I've just done

But I knew that wouldn't help

Cuz that’s wut I’ve been doing

Act without a moment of thinking

And regreting after that.. Knowing that I wouldn't

Regret bout it or think bout it.. If I just thought twice before acting

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They say before ye die

Ye see ye'r life pass before ye'r eyes

Well, I couldn’t see it.. Didn’t dare to look

I knew wut I was bout to see

An emptiness.. Coldness.. Loneliness.. Life

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Tasted the blood in my throat.. I started to lose consciousness

Went to the darkest places ever.. It was familiar

And then I knew it.. I knew it very well

I’ve been there every each night

Trying to find wut makes it darker with each passing day

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I'm in the deep of my heart.. A place that I feared to look inside

Feared to think much bout it..

Knowing I’ll be locked there if I started thinking

Surrounded with cold black walls

I heard laughter and a strange voice

Telling me how pathetic my life was

They think I didn't know that??

I knew it and knew it more with every passing minute

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I’ve been sticking myself in a frozen picture

Encircled by top secret emotions.. That no one dared to look close

And if they did, I push ‘em further away

In the name of fear of losing ‘em someday

I started to tear blood.. I know I wouldn't handle all this facts

Now that I faced it all.. I don't want to die alone

Time is running out.. And I'm losing my strength

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“Where’s the exit?” I scream

I only hear an echo that fulfill my dream

I woke up and knew it’s was just another dream

But this time

I have figured the code of life

I hold my sword in honor to win the fight