As we waltzed in pretend through the space in my head
I found a path that I took 'round the bend
to avoid the regrets that awaited me there
With a smile in your mouth and the wind in your hair
and I pretended not to care.

I missed 'til I was full then I missed 'til I broke
I loved until I felt my hope choke
Because I held your hand through a space in my mind
hoping to win something i wouldn't find
you never repaid me in kind

because i fell off the cusp and fell into my love
where all that i wanted was never enough
and all you could give never left me sated
i made myself into something i hated
a lonely monster, created

i would learn all the steps that i thought i would need
and when you loved her, i was swollen with greed
let's play all the sins! jealously, envy
ENVY! ENVY! ENVY!
could somebody save me?

because i need and i need and i've pushed you away
by doing what i thought you thought i should say
and i've built up a wall around my heart
and i'm much too afraid to tear it apart
though i should start

there's a space in my bed if you ever want it
you're always in my head, if you ever haunt it
you'll find nothing but you filling up my insides
a sun so bright that the real me can't hide
and sometimes dies

i've been made and remade a million times before
i've followed you, from depths to heights
only to tumble back
I am Icarius,
why have you melted my wax wings?
i have fallen to sea after sea to float on
well, we'll all float on okay
i think we'll be alright tonight
and every other night we need each other
I'm waiting for you to come round and find me,
some piece in every face that passes
some part of you seared into me

I have seen the future flicker
I have brushed a changing moment by
and felt it, up against my side
show my a white picket fence with professors behind it
laughing as their children play catch

I have seen you in writing and over the wire
I have felt you in words, I have felt it
I have met possibilty as I hugged it goodbye and wished it well in Virginia
I have drawn my fingers along something,
and let them fall to my sides

I have seen them riding under the waves,
shadows that crest in my soul
they swim beneath the unicorns

I wait, I wait
and I'm yearning,
I'm yearning in a white wedding dress for my Peter Parker to come home
a game of ping-pong around my heart

where should either of us start?