feeling the work of the devil
as the blade touches skin
unable to forget it
the ache deep within
i thought that this was love
found out it was not
now unable to control myself
as crazy as i thought
the tears upon my cheek
are certainly a sign of you
not telling you anything
if you only knew
to die might not be as bad
as what im feeling now
as if anyone really cares
my pain they wont allow
no one will give me a freedom
i feel i now deserve
as i drag the blade across my skin
i slowly lose my nerve
finally giving in
to this torment i call a life
as i turn around and walk away
without my friendly knife
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she smiled when she saw him
she believed his every lie
now she cant not understand
why he turned and said goodbye
she thought he was in love
she thought he was content
little did she know
he wasnt really heaven sent
now all she can see
is who he really is
realizing she was nothing
just another toy of his
so she forces a smile
for everyone in sight
doesnt want anyone to know
her heart just wasnt right
the knife deep within
she feels every knick
as the blood runs down her wrist
she begins to feel very sick
she tries to hide her scars
unsuccessful in every way
not that it will matter
tomorrow will be lost today
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now i feel so stupid for falling in love with you
i tried to catch my heart but was unable to
you held it in your hands for a moment in time
my heart skipped a beat as your lips met mine
i felt my knees begin to shake as your hand touched me
i turned my head away so my blushing you couldnt see
as i spent more time with you my feelings became too intense
i was so dumb i let down my every single defense
i built a wall around my heart to keep me from this pain
but i tore it down foolishly thinking you felt the flame
i thought that you and i could simply have it all
that you would be the one to catch me when i fall
apparently my hopes fell upon deafened ears
everyone around unaware of my fears
i thought you were slipping into this same abyss
how can i be the one you hate...when youre the one i miss?