Its Just Not yet

In my room, laying on my bed
In such a cold quiet night, while all were sound asleep
I was thinking of you and of what you said
Restless and distressed, it made me want to weep

I got up from my bed
Opened my window and looked at the stars above
Thinking of what happened instead
That I can't seem to get rid of

Still in denial
And still hard for me to take
I always knew through our trail
What I had with you was to valuable to forsake

What you said, cut me and left a wound that will never heal
Could all what we shared, all what we said, were not real
What we had, was something very few have ever known
What we felt, dreamt~ And in all these years has grown

But in my heart, in my depths, my dear friend
I know that I will never let you go and this is not the end
Till my last breath, my heart will call your name
That I loved ever since, into my life you came

The name that I loved before you came along
For some reason, I loved saying your name, like an old song
Because I know what you did, you think it's for the best
But deep underneath, we know this is all a mere test

Could it be true that we will never be
When everything tells me that you are the one for me
Tells me that I will and be able to look at your face
And to my Lord, I say thank you for your Grace!

For every night I prayed, begged, and looked up to the sky
To let me see the day I meet my love before I die
To think otherwise, tears my heart and makes me cry a river
Because my love will be in my heart and my soul forever

My soul has fallen for yours~ before our eyes meet
And I had to keep it inside~ And better remain discreet
Thinking that one day, this feeling will soon fade away
Instead it has grown stronger, in every single day

And if it happened
That my time had come before this dream come true
I hope that we will in heaven
After all what we have gone through

Where there is no pain, no grief, no death can do us apart
There I wish you be my eternal companion, wishes my heart
And then my friend, you will see as I surely will
That everything happens for a reason, that's God's will

We will meet again, and for that we shall never forget
It's not over, because It hasn't begun, just not yet