Eyes swollen from tears
No where to turn
I hide from the world
In my bath room
Locking the door,
Shutting you out
I sit and weep
I shudder in fear
I climb into the tub
Aching for security
I close the curtain
For privacy
Hunting for safety from my own mind
I shut my eyes, and wince in pain
As I grip my wrists
Searching for a way out
I look closely at the veins that run through my arm
Then at the scars
I know how to do it
Where to slide the blade
But I don’t
I won’t
That would be running
Just like you did
I won’t leave the ones who care
Even though you left me,
I can’t cause them the pain you dealt me
You say you’ll come back
That you’ll always love me
I don’t believe you
But I wish you would

There’s a knock on the door,
A familiar voice, could it be?
I step out of the bath tub,
Checking my face in the mirror
Wiping away the tears
I take a deep breath
And open the door
There you stand, arms open wide
Saying I told you I’d be back
Stepping into your arms,
I no longer search for security.

~here's something, not too sure what to think about it, but feel free to tell me what you think!