I love you but its calling me, its all the same
Inside my brain, echo's shatter everything that remains
The blood stains, over power the feeling of pure pain
But today, could easily be the day that i awake
From this nightmare, baby im sorry because im selfish
I never stopped loving you, why the fuck did you do this?
Why the fuck did I do this? I fell in a trap
And now i cant think straight, im in hell and its black
What could have triggered this mentality ignoring the truth?
It must have been, something back in my childhood, perhaps
Something simple, maybe its the way i was raised
As a whole, now my soul, it feels pain, for you
Baby i miss you, obsessed or not, its how i feel
Now i know what they meant, when they said life was real
Growing up, as a younger teen...seemed like a film
I was trapped inside the matrix, emotions were numb
Now reality has hit me like the blows of a gun
And it hurts, so bad...just to know he's the one
And im not, and i tried so hard...to love again
But im still, all alone in my bedroom...i think
Why am i here in the first place? I miss my home
Its almost christmas...even though religions cold
Its so warm in my heart, i refuse to be like them
I still dream...even when my dreams include no friend
No subtle hint, that this reality's just a dream
Goodbye world...its calling me again
Im sorry that it ended like this, but see i tried
Doesnt matter if i cry, but it matters if i die
And my life was such a gem, but now...who can i blame?
My mother or is it me...im old enough to pretend
That these lyrics have potential to reach, the bigger world
Full of girls, full of men, full of fathers and sons
And im hopeless, my last desire is for it to end
Fuck it, fight it, its really all the same
No matter how hard you try, your never gonna win
That perfect job, perfect mind, perfect children perfect life
Perfect house, perfect world, perfect husband perfect wife
Life, you can live it or attempt to try
Just tell the children keep theyre heads up high
From this point on, its getting uglier...mark my word
But fortunately, for me, i dont have to cry for the world
I wont be here, but listen close mankind, i wish you love
Just remember that were human and emotions are real
Dont let the silly tricks fool you... baby your got too
'Cause the day my world ended was the day i forgot you.....