Nothing is as it
was before.
My thoughts are scattered,
My mind is shattered;
I have nothing more
To live for.

Can't go on
With such darkness
In my heart;
A mind so full of
Crazy thoughts.

I know I'm insane.
God, how I've changed!

I've lost my head,
And every hour is filled
With terrible dread.
I'm no longer alive inside,
My soul is dead.

No!
Nothing is as it was before,
An army of screaming demons
Are screaming outside
My door.

And locked away inside,
I can't hide
From the darkest demon of them all -
My own self!

I am
Haunted by the past;
There's no tomorrow,
Only paranoia,
Fear
And sorrow.

Sanity I once had,
But it didn't last.
And I'll never have it
Back again.

Let me pause
To wipe
The spit
From my chin.

I used to be pretty,
A pretty thing to see,
And all the boys
Used to chase after me.

Now I'm ugly,
With rotten teeth,
And old before my time,
Just a another worthless
Piece of slime.

They used to call me pretty names,
Now they call me things
I'm too ashamed
to hear.

They say I'm no good
And worthless,
Just a piece of shit.
They don't even use
My name anymore,
They call me "It."

Used
And abused,
That's all I am.
I'm just no good;
A worthless woman.

Crack-whore by trade,
I'll lay with any man
Who wants to
Take a chance
In my pants,
And get me
Squirming.

I guess they're right;
Why continue
The fight?
I'm ready to
Give in
And call it a night.

Demons screaming my name;
I know I'm insane!
I can't go on;
I can't keep on
Living
This way.

Darkness all around,
Where nothing good is found.
Let's end the pain.

Take my life, Lord,
Put me in the ground.
Maybe in the next life
I'll be sane.