May 13th 2008 – If Only...

Back in the grade six summer,
I signed up for soccer…forced by my parents…what a bummer!
Then I met you, still remember when our coach made us go hug trees in the corner
Thought you were the most funniest and charming guy ever

After came grade seven, soccer season,
I didn’t even have to go but you were the only reason!
We weren’t on the same team but you still stopped by now and then to chat
And you always used to throw me one of your looks and smile
Ahah, and it was also when your stupid cousin broke our rearview mirror
And you and your mom came to our driveway to pay the repair money
Making my driveway into a sacred temple

Grade eight… don’t get me started
Same team, same coach, same uniform… oh man!
You used to go up to me and ask me wassupp?
And I used to just stutter like an idiot
Remember going to sit to eat some food and you always be sitting a person away with your friends….
Can’t forget prank-calling you either!
And you singing “where you go” to all the guys like a homosexual
It was like this was meant to be
Dammit that summer was probably the best summer of my life
And it was all cause of you
Punching somebody’s shoulder every time you walked by and smiled
Listening to the temptations and thinking of you
Best of all, I remember our conversations
“public announcement” “you are so amazingly gay” man I miss those good old msn conversations
Sure it took a while for ME to actually say hi but it was worth the wait
But time flies by and before we knew it came our goodbyes and that was that

Grade nine… still stuck on you
Every little thing reminding me of you
And everyone always bothering me about you and your stupid cousin who I felt nothing for
But as time goes by… love dies
And that’s what happened with me and you
Or so I thought

Grade ten….
Thought I was over and done with you
Until that day I caught a glimpse of a tall guy, curly hair with a white bandana
I needed no explanation, no second opinion
I knew it was you
Depressed as I was… you were the only one to bring me out of it
Seeing you looking at me bought back all those soccer memories…
You looked at me the same way you did in grade 6 – 9
Dammit, you make my blood vessels intertwine with each other, leaving my heart gasping for air
All it takes is one look and I’m totally utterly knocked-out…
My hands begin to shake and my face starts to redden
A lot of guys are funny, a lot of guys are hot but none of them are as attention-grabbing, heart-attacking, as you
And seeing you reminds me of that truth all the time

They say everything happens for a reason
They say live your life to the fullest cause you’ll never know when its time for you to say goodbye
And so hear I sit listening to this song...
Left to wonder what coulda been if only....
if onlyy....