Once again I feel so trapped inside this broken shell
never-ending days of pain keep my mind lost in hell.
Constant struggles multiplied determination lost
if I live or pass away my soul will be the cost.

Life, if that's what you call it, for me is living death
every day my eyes open and I draw one more breath.
Death to me a welcomed thing, an end to all the pain
but it can't come at my own hands so life to me insane.

Healthy people all around they say they'd like to help
if I ask, one more excuse, so I stay to myself.
so to the world I turn my back and once I close this door
the me I once was used to be but won't be any more!

Alfie P. 6/28/08